"Some Consistency..Please!"

I like consistency. I really do.
Could I please have some consistency....I can deal with weather changes...but the climate changing every week....that I cant deal with. Not at all.
I like my reality to remain my reality and not be put into question and doubt every week around.
Maybe Ive been fooling myself...maybe my reality is just some twisted concoction of my own imagination that I force myself to belive.

but I know its not that.
This is real.
Beacuse the happiness, the pain, every feeling is to real, too sharp and vivid to be an abstraction.


But I still can not deny that there is no consistency and that scares the life out of me, because I know Im heading towards a preordained and unavoidable passage...I am Spiraling towards it, head on.

And I DONT wanna crash and burn.

"You do something wonderful...
Then chase it all away,
mixing my emotions
that throws me back again"
-Paul Weller