lyrical lecture

I wrote this absentmindedly during a lecture I was supposed to be listening to(!!), in February 2005.

I think I’ve been stupid…They may say I’m blind
When you tell me something and I believe you,
I know I’m outta my mind

Looking back…realizing things now
Leaves me full of regret about the way I felt…
Really wanna forget you but don’t know how.

You know how to manipulate…
You know how to get to me…
It’s sad I know all the things,
But the bad in you I still don’t see

It’s not important how I feel…
Cuz you couldn’t really care less…
I’m killing myself…I’m an emotional mess
To you I’m not real.

(I sing to myself…I sing “My Favorite Mistake”…
Cuz that’s what you have come to be…
A mistake I make again and again)