I am so conflicted, so confused…
about nothing else in life just you.

Too many ‘whys’ too many ‘what ifs’
Back to bubble wrapping myself.

Suspicious Mind

“We can’t go on together with suspicious minds
And we can’t build our dreams on suspicious minds”

Suspicious Minds-Elvis Presly


I can't go on with this suspicious mind, U deserve better than to be doubted by this suspicious mind.

Why ask me about life without U...

Why ask me about life without U?
…a life I don’t want to think of.

I’ve found in you an irreplaceable friend… no matter how complex life is with you in it…I would rather not have it any other way. You’re just a friend, but a friend so much more than any other. I wouldn’t know soooo many things about me, so many things about the world. Do I give u more credit than u deserve? I can’t be an impartial judge of that and neither can you. U may think so…but somehow I don’t, the credit is yours to claim.

You tossed my world upside down by making me question and redefine my staunch beliefs, ideas and principles, and subsequently reassess how resolute and pertinent they were in the first place. You got me rid of sameness, of the mundane, of the ordinary. Without you I wouldn’t be pushing my boundaries, discovering life the way I am. I wouldn’t be discovering myself (or be as patient or tolerant as I have become!). Without you I wouldn’t have known who I truly am, I wouldn’t have grown out of who I thought I was. Without you I’d be living but wouldn’t be as alive.

Shubho Drishti

I’ve never been one to go ga-ga over romantic gibberish. Somehow….this touched somewhere deep inside.

“They say in the old tales that when a man and woman exchange looks the way we did, their spirits mingle. Their gaze is a rope of gold binding each to the other. Even if they never meet again, they carry a little of the other with them always. They can never forget, and they can never be wholly happy again.”
“That is why, in families that kept the ancient traditions, girls were not allowed to meet men until the moment of auspicious seeing, shubho drishti, when the bride and groom gave themselves to each other with their eyes. It wasn’t, as Anju said, to keep the woman ignorant and under control. The elders in their wisdom had done it to prevent heartbreak.”

- Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni
Excerpt: Sister of My Heart.

Just Completely

I know how to give myself just one way…wholly and completely. Mind, body and heart.
I can’t give just bits and pieces of me…pieces and parts.
I’m not her, I can’t be her.
If that’s all you want I’m sure that you will find her.
We both deserve more than that.