dil uttar gaya hai...

I said "Too soon it might be too late", i think that too soon has arrived. It is a lil too late.

I cant help but feel this way. And its a different feeling, a very different feeling. I cant tell u exactly what it is, I haven’t completely discovered it myself. But I can tell you what it’s NOT like. It’s not like the time when you argue or fight with a best friend, not like when you are so mad you swear to yourself that your are not going to give in this time. Not even like the times when you promise yourself that you are going to act completely cool, and not bothered at all, or going to ignore the other one till they come to their senses, not even like trying to have a rehearsal of a conversation in your head, or confrontation. Not even like the feeling of giving up or being sad over uncontrollable issues. Not even the blood red, angst, or raging fury of frustration.
It’s very different from that. VERY.
Everything replaced with a steady, unblinking, dry eyed gaze, and an equally non communicative, distant, not happy-but-not-dejected-either, non expressive, i-still-care-but-im-NOT-going-to-doanything-about-it-cuz-i-no-it’s-not-worth-it, U-are-not-worth-it, SMILE.

I think,
Dil uttar gaya hai…